Just Wanna Complain...

Today is my 1st paper... I answered the first question (which is worth the most marks - 20%) without reading the question properly. In the end, I wrote totally out of point... Exams... Just 2 hours to determine what you will get for your final grade.. Nobody sees how hard you have worked for the exams... It is basically a competition on who can best managed stress, who can write the fastest... How much is dependent on one's hardwork is doubtful... Extremely doubtful...

2nd paper tomorrow....... Good luck to me!

Addicted to Studying?...

Recently, the building of two behemoth tourist resorts in Singapore that include casino has raised some issues on gambling and its social problems. People started mentioning about the harmful consequences if one gets addicted to gambling...

I was thinking.. Why people are always addicted to bad stuff? Drugs, cigarettes, gambling, PC gaming, sex etc... All bad things seem to be addictive (Luckily, I still never heard of anyone get addicted by committing terrorist acts except OSAMA)!!! Why doesn't people get addicted to good things? Addicted to studying, addicted to helping people, addicted to dial 1900-112-6888 (NKF hotline), addicted to love... All these sound like pipe dreams...

Cant think too much.... Gotta go back to my studies... Only 5 days left... =( Sian... How I wish I could be addicted to studying (maybe my gf will suffer if thats the case =p)...

I c a "C"!!!... Sickening...

Stunned... Sad... When I received my assignment paper, I almost fainted (I actually thought I got the wrong paper)... I was over-confident... never thought I would see a "C" in my NUS years... That assignment is 10% of my overall grade... Shit!!! Will have to put in 150% effort to get an A for that module... I MUST DO WELL... (cos this is the module I ve most confidence in... Dun even ask me about the rest of my modules... They sucks big time)

Going off to study... Bought scones, bread, cookies to keep me going... (or maybe to vent my anger by eating)... Sigh... Hope all my friends out there wont experience my kind of "pain" (maybe i am over-reacting)...

Someone told me "results ain't important"... I think thats BULLSHIT... Wake up man... This is the real world... Do not over-romanticized the place where we lived in...

Sorry about my language... I am just really sad...


I'm only human
It's so easy for your friends to give you their advice
They'll tell you, just let it go
It's easier said than done
I appreciate it, I do, but
Just leave me alone
Leave me alone
Just leave me alone
And nothing gonna change
You can go away
I'm just gonna stay here
And always be the same

- Taken from Limp Bizkit, Nookie.

The BIG Fuss Over a Textbook?...

You all should have heard from the news about the contested issue over the newly published Japanese History Textbook... Just a penny of my thoughts... I think the PRCs are over-reacting!!! Crazy people... I know about Japanese history and how China Chinese and Koreans had suffered under the Japs' hands.. However, all these are HISTORY... What are those protesters doing now? Trying to remind people around the world to sympathesize them? I strongly believe that in this post modern era, the new generation of Japaneses have the right to be respected. Their grandfathers' doings are not within their control...

Radically, I even think there is nothing wrong with "changing the history"... I mean who really knows about the exact history? For the Koreans, they have their own perceptions on what happened during WWII and similarly for the PRC and Japanese... I agree that some parts of the dark history are struck off in this textbook, but I really think it is a good idea... Whats the reason behind to remind Japanese young kids that their grandfathers or great grand fathers were once murderers and rapists? As part of nation building, I support Japanese to reinvent their history... =p

As for PRC, I got a phrase for them "yuan1 yuan1 xiang1 bao4 he2 shi2 liao3" (i.e. revenge is never ending) Why keep reminding themselves that they were once victims of WWII? They should have let their lives go on... Especially the future generation's lives to move on... reminding them of these unsightly pasts will only create more contestations between nations...

Old Japan WAS guilty... But not the contemporary Japan... Thats all I ve to say...



It is absurd to me (maybe not to the PRCs and Koreans) that a harmless looking textbook like this would have catalysed this strings of violent acts in Beijing, HK and Korea...

Picnic in a Bus Stop...

Initially going for a dance performance in Fort Canning Park just now... Since the schedule reflected that picnic will commence at 5.30pm, I ve b(r)ought sliced guava from home, egg salad from Hans, and a bread with crab meat (Sorry... I dunno the supposed name for that) from Delifrance...

In the end, when me and my gf happily walked until the entrance, she realised that her tickets were left at home... Sigh... What can I say? I took a deep breath and gulped down all my anger... So everything was alright... However, she kept complaining that she will feel better if I were to voice out my anger... Girls... Dunno what you all are thinking... Thought by not being angry will be what she wants... Think I need to go back and read that book about "Man from Mars, Woman from Venus" one more time...

Anyway, in the end, we ended up in a bus stop beside Fort Canning to munch on our dinner... What a day!!! Sigh......

"Die lah... Confirm didnt do well for the ________"

"Die lah... Confirm didnt do well for the ________"... The _______ can either be one's project, test or exams... Does this sentence look familiar to anyone of you? Well, I kept hearing it from my friends in NUS... However, the thing is... When they got back their results, its always an A+, A or A-... Oh SHIT... these people sound so disgusting right? Sian... Just 2dae one guy got an A+ for his project and he was complaining to me how bad his will be... If A+ is bad, den what is good??????

*Self Reflecting* Hmm... Am I one of them... Just today, i was also complaining about my test before it was given back to me... Well... Shit... i got an A-... Think after hearing my complaining and seeing my result, she also sian diao... =p haha... Well... Sometimes, there is such a thing call luck... I am just lucky... But I will try not too make too much "noise" about some project, test or exams I ve done... Anyway, why I always did that (or anybody else) might be to comfort oneself by preparing for the worst... Hence, if the result is a lot better than expected, its a BONUS...

Sickening... I will be receiving two of the worst essays I ve ever done tml and wednesday... Super no confidence.... Oops... There I go again... (but i am really worried)...

Group Project With All Sorts of Group Members...

How many group projects have I done? hmmm... MANY... Can't help it... I am studying in FASS and majoring Geography... Many group projects often come with many weird group members (Sounds like "Great Power Comes with Great Responsibilities" - From Spiderman =p)

Currently, I am working on another geography group project on Bugis Street's stuff... Appointed as the group leader, it is inevitable that I will be doing most of the work since I need to oversee that everything will be perfect... I am a perfectionist!!! Hence, most of the time, I wont give much stuff to my group members... However, one irritating member kept asking me to give her stuff to do... Oh my... She really irritating me (*Pulling Hair*)... The first time I saw her, I know shes a gone case... And I am ABSOLUTELY RIGHT

Just imagine I distribute everything among 4 other group members... What will happen??? I will tell you... When the work is done and shown to me, I will surely get MAD and Super BUSY. Cos everyone is writing different stuff that needs major editing... And whos doing it? ME ME ME... Why can't she understand this like the rest of my group members???

If this is the only reason, I wont blame her... However, you know why is she so enthu to help me and before that she is like heck care of anything to do with this project. Well well... U heard of peer appraisal? Yes... When the lecturer announced that we need to do a peer appraisal upon submission, she started panicking... In additional, she did not even read any things regarding our project and how do you expect me to distribute work to her?

Anyway, I admit that I am a potential out-of-this-world group member when working with others... Bernie.. If u are reading this, you should know... Hahaha... =p I tend to trust only one person and that is myself.. Hence, most of the time, I will try to do everything by myself... Heee... and only ideas contributed by me is feasible... Wahahaha... I am SO IRRITATING also... Cant help it.. I am born like that... What can I do? I dunno... =( Sorry to those poor group members out there who actually worked with me before... (though I believe some of them really appreciate my presence cos of my hardwork)

Next week's Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday will be my doomsdays... Cos all my assignments will be handed back to me... I really don't have any confidence... Sigh... Anyone up there (in heaven), help me...