Why Seldom Blog?...

It should be "Why Blog" in the first place...

I have learnt something from geography last semester - "gender as a performance" denoting that people are performing gender (doing what man and woman should do) daily. What so great about this concept!!!!???? People with common sense know that life itself is a performance... Blogging is one of the ultimate performance... The blogger often has a targeted audience and objective of blogging, hoping someone to read his/her blog so as to deliver certain messages across via such performances... Just like how many musical performances on stage can capture and control the audiences' emotions... To capture and control... Yes... Those are the words to describe blogs...

The variety of objectives is kaleidoscopic in nature... Reading my past blogs, I realise that there were times I wanted to be sympathized, to be praised, to be impressed, to be envied, to share my joy, to share my sadness etc... Humans need social circle... We need alliances - people who acknowledge our feelings and agree to our way of thinking in various aspects... That is why bloggers hope to influence others through their blogging skills... I've read many... There are really people with good skills...

Now... I prefer not to blog... Even when I really wanted to find people to listen to my complaints,listen to my feelings... basically listening to my heart... I prefer to keep certain things to myself...

Ironically, this blog might even have been written with subconscious objective... hoping to influence the readers... Or I might not be posting blogs for sometimes... That is because if there are private matters which I prefer to share with very close people rather than letting the masses know...

My Big Walk (From AMK to Hougang)

Today, I have walked from Ang Mo Kio MRT station to my house in hougang from 10:15pm to 11:45pm. Haha... Its a good exercise wor... Along the way, nothing much happened except for a foreign worker asked me to give him $2 but I denied having any money with me... I was thinking about a lot of things during my personal "Big Walk"... However, I have thought through nothing... =X

What Is This Tagging Thingy...?

Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add one true thing about you, and then tag five more people.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olives.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal WordPress blog.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in (a) God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I wan to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbour or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
Democrat.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient on a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I like sausage.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. (it is way too long.. -.-")
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when neccesary.
Weight is my enemy!

I dun think i will want to tag 5 more ppl... Its quite a tough job going through all the list of things... thks lor Huiling

Things I Did On Christmas Day 25th December 2005...

Just past midnight, I tried to fry an egg. Instead, I’ve burned the egg and smoked the house. The smoke woke my mum from her sleep. My first attempt to cook failed. =(

Woke up late. Took a taxi to Toa Payoh interchange to meet my girlfriend and two other couples. SMS Elaine and hope that she will enjoy her day. Went KTV in Toa Payoh Safra and sang for 5 full hours.

Took a cab to Sommerville Walk in Serangoon to attend my grandma’s birthday party. Got bitten by my aunt’s 7th month golden retriever – Kobe on my right hand. Now, its swollen. Watched the ending of "Love Actually" at my aunt's house shown over cable TV. The little girl really sings well in that show.

Girlfriend called and said she wanted to meet me after the party ended and so dad fetched me to Ang Mo Kio. Along the way, my brother asked me what I wanted to be after I graduated. I replied that I might be a teacher but that would be one year after I have graduated. After reaching AMK, my girlfriend and I walked to Jubilee and went to drink bubble tea. Initially, wanted to catch a movie but I have already watched “Narnia”.

Took a bus home and “tabao” a packet of black fried carrot cake for my brother.

Reached home and started typing out this list.

Christmas is nothing without warmth...

The Secret of "Secret Garden"...

The new age band - "Secret Garden" is recommended by a friend in my JC life. She was someone who isolated herself from all guys in AJ. However, since she lives a few blocks away from my house, there will be times when we took the same bus home. In addition, she was from AJCO. Therefore, I had a lot of chances to talk to her. She was a really shy girl.

She seldom smile. She always felt inferior about herself. I managed to make her laugh once on a bus trip home. Even when laughing, she will cover her mouth as though she didn't like to be seen happy. "Secret Garden" has many many music with sad tunes. Maybe like what Elaine has mentioned, when girls are sad, they like to make themselves more sad (by listening to sad songs). She was really a sad girl.

Whenever I went to popular cd rama to buy cds, I will go to the new age section to check whether "Secret Garden" has came out with new albums. If there is, I will immediately sms her...

That is my secret of "The Secret Garden"... Anyway, she has totally vanished from my life... Its a sad story...

Hectic...

So busy that my mind is always on school work. No time to even capture my past. For those who are eager to read about my history, please be patient. Hopefully, the hectic life of mine will pass soon.

The Oldest Thing I Can Remember...

Frankly speaking, I do not know which one of my memories should be ranked as the oldest (when I was the youngest)... So let me just start with something I can remember before I even went into kindergarden...

Don't really know whether my kindergarden should be known as PAP (People's Action Party). That was what everyone called my kindergarden... I really think it should have some other fancier or nicer name like Cloud Palace, Kids Haven etc... my kindergarden was in Hougang. Therefore, my memories of the time before my kindergarden should be before I've moved to Hougang...

My first home was in Ang Mo Kio (near the road that divides Bishan)... I can vaguely remember what my surroundings look like... I can recall the overhead bridge, the playground (I always call a playground as "see-saw"... Only when I was older, I realised see-saw is merely an item in the playground)... I can remember the design of my floor and the clothes that I loved to wear (Batman and Robin T-shirt with a sexy short short). There was a dirty green sofa in my living room and I remember I always hide behind the sofa (Don't really know for what reason)...

Those were the days...